I am restless.
I feel so unsettled.
I am caught in an internal conflict.

I am sick and tired of living in my patterns.

Yet, I do not know how to live without them.

I am caught in a dilemma,
a dilemma of the heart.
a dilemma of the soul.

“How do I heal this?” I long to know.

I desperately ask the Universe.
“How do I heal this?”

“Be still,” I hear,
and so I am.

I get very quiet.
I continue to go inward.

I hear words of intention.
I hear words of becoming conscious, aware.

I am taught of the energetic cost of harmful patterns.

I am shown that at this particular moment
I will be uncomfortable no matter what I do.

I am uncomfortable if I stay in my patterns.
I am uncomfortable if I go beyond my patterns.

It seems as if I am damned if I do and damned if I don’t.

I hate this feeling,
but there is no escaping this.

I just have to accept this process of entering the Void.

I just have to trust the process.