I am restless.
I feel so unsettled.
I am caught in an internal conflict.
I am sick and tired of living in my patterns.
Yet, I do not know how to live without them.
I am caught in a dilemma,
a dilemma of the heart.
a dilemma of the soul.
“How do I heal this?” I long to know.
I desperately ask the Universe.
“How do I heal this?”
“Be still,” I hear,
and so I am.
I get very quiet.
I continue to go inward.
I hear words of intention.
I hear words of becoming conscious, aware.
I am taught of the energetic cost of harmful patterns.
I am shown that at this particular moment
I will be uncomfortable no matter what I do.
I am uncomfortable if I stay in my patterns.
I am uncomfortable if I go beyond my patterns.
It seems as if I am damned if I do and damned if I don’t.
I hate this feeling,
but there is no escaping this.
I just have to accept this process of entering the Void.
I just have to trust the process.